I Have A Dream...

Actually, I have lots of dreams. Not all of them are lofty dreams in which I better the world by curbing global warming or ending hunger. Some of my dreams are quite mundane, nonetheless, they are my dreams and I believe them to be valid and worth sharing.

1. I want to go to Greece with my girls. I want to lay on the deck of giant cruise ship, in a white bikini (showing off my six pack that doesn't presently exist) while being served margaritas (on the rocks, no salt) by a 23 year old waiter named Stavros. In this dream, all of the very handsome Greek men are named Stavros and they know how to make the perfect margarita (do they even serve margaritas in Greece?) and I get to eat hummus and olives (in this dream I like olives.) The aforementioned six pack was obtained by eating nothing but nachos and cupcakes and doing no sit ups what so ever. The cruise ship (a brilliant white) is floating in the sparkling blue water of the Meditteranean and when I look up all I can see is blue skies and white buildings with blue roofs on Santorini Island.

2. I want to be the best mom ever. I want to spend tons of time with my kids and be their best friend. I want to be the cool mom while still being respected by my children. I want them to come to me with their dreams and aspirations and I want to be able to be supportive even when I don't agree with them. I want to encourage them to explore all their options in all things that pertain to their lives and be OK with it if they choose something that I wouldn't. I want them to ask for my advice even though I don't have a great track record of making good decisions (especially when I was a teenager.) I want to be involved in their lives but not overbearing and I don't ever want to let them down.

3. I want to own a funky boutique and sell only one-of-a-kind things that I or other local artists make. The boutique would have hand painted floors and ceilings (by me) and it would be jammed pack full of electic pieces that didn't match but somehow looked great together. There would be bright colors and shapes every where and it would be over the top but in a very sophisticated, arty way. It wouldn't be pretentious so that young "would be"artists or people that aren't arty or creative wouldn't feel uncomfortable and like they didn't belong. The philosophy is "Free Art." There are no rules about what things should look like. You are just creative and however it turns out is that piece's destiny. It was designed by the Fates. I want to sell pottery and art made out of recycled stuff and beautiful clothes at reasonable prices. This boutique would be in a funky town (probably not Blanchester - it has never been described as funky in a good way) and all the local musicians would hang out there. I would have book club meetings and card games on Saturday nights. There would be a sign hanging in the window that said "We are only accepting positive feedback today. If you have anything negative to say, please come back tomorrow."

4. I want to become more organized and a better housekeeper. Or I want to have enough money to pay someone to organize my stuff and clean up after me and my family.

5. I want to read, read, read. I want a fabulous career, I want to be a super involved mom. I want to eat healthy (but I don't want to exercise.) I want do charity work, I want to recycle more. I want to have great hair. I want to be more independent. I want to be a better wife. I want to stick to my guns. I want to have more good actions instead of only having good intentions.

I am looking at this list and it seems that I have a lot of wants which was not my original intention of this post. I would describe myself as a pretty content person although the last little bit doesn't reflect that. I feel I should put in a few things that I like about myself so that it doesn't seem that this is a "Woe is Lynsey" post.

I am funny, I am smart. I am GREAT at karaoke. I have done well for myself so far in my career. I am a pretty good mom (my kids say I am the best ever but they may be a little biased.) I am a pretty decent wife although I don't cook or clean. I have VERY good intentions.

I am not sure I am going to be able to fulfill my dreams but I hope I never stop dreaming of things that I want to do. I don't ever want to be so content with my life that I stop my dreaming and hoping. I am at a very good place in my life - I have a wonderful and supportive husband, the most precious children ever, an incredible family, the best friends in the world, a nice home, a great job. I have pretty much everything a girl could ask for (although I do wish there were a few more hours in the day.) I am not sure what I have done to deserve all this, maybe I was a saint in my former life or am just very conscious of my karma, but I appreciate all of the little and the big things in my life. I don't ever want to take it for granted and stop appreciating it. I am going to continue to dream (I would also like to curb global warming and cure world hunger - wouldn't it be cool if we could do it at the same time?) while I take a little bit of time each day to really reflect on what I have and how awesome my life is.